Jsingh ji,
Nice post, in terms, of asking sadh sangat for their opinion and advice.
I can well imgaine what u must be going thro, as per your post. May be somewhere i'm feeling the same, but the person who left me forever, asked me in last message, dont cry waheguru has done this for good.
I have so many memories of that person with me, and 'm making them my strength, those are encouraging me, i'm trying to keep that person alive and always be with me.
So, try to make those memories your strength.
Rest sadh sangat has put forward so many beautiful posts.
Bhul Chuk Maaf