hey u didnt gt me.i mean to say dat,see i tell u my prob.i startd doing jaap n simran,n suddenly wild n dirtiest thoughts startd cming to my mind regarding all guru ji's, bhraham giyanis',n even regarding my dear ones.more over i faced major blow in ma life wich shattered me into pieces.till date am not able to do even ardas by heart,as al dat thoughts hit me again.not for a split second i say dat its coz of jaap n simran,coz i hv full faith in gurbani.its soo long me fighting like dis.i mean such powerfull is dat thought procees dat it never let me demand or beg during ardas.for exmpl say i do ardas for smthing i want ,strong voice from inside will say i dont want it,n suppose i do ardas so dat i pass my exam dat voice will say please fail me n its hell strong.,i lost dat thing for wch i usd to do ardas n meditation,but i still do,in HOPE.my quest in--
1.does waheguru ji is saying (by giving wild thoughts) dat dont ask me dat thing for whc u r doing meditation n ardas , u won get it.
2.he is testing me,no matter how wired d test is.