oops my bad am your guys Penji, hehe.
I have checked sunsingh paji;s link and seriously speaking, all your replies are helping me alot, I was so stressed over this at first and iM now more realistic. Lets see waht happens, coz like Ysl paji said, " you should converse" it is hard but i will. Aman Kaur Penji, the fact about showing someone the right path has also kind of moved me too and may be it is waht God wants for me. Is it true that if you take someone into the right path( I hope Guruji shows me it), Waheguru ji blesses you?