Fateh,
I was in the exact same position 2 years ago, and the only thing that actually helped me was listening to Anand sahib 6 pauris.
However, do not sit around thinking I will read bani 24/7 and you will be cured. Of course this is true in some cases, but the best advice I can give you is progress and move on. I know that is not much to go on, but when I was suffering from depression, I felt useless and weak. DO SOME SPORTS!!! It really helps. Never let yourself sit still, if you are in UNI, or have a job, give it your 100%. Develop a routine!
Another thing, Maharaj has a plan for you. TRUST ME! I used to think, Hey Im a Gursikh, I read bani, why is this happening to me? The reality was that I was not hanging around with the right Sangat. They were not bad sangat (still awesome friends) but they were not the RIGHT Sangat. Now I feel so blessed to have such amazing sangat, who helps me progress my Sikhi forward.
Don't get me wrong, depression is a serious thing, and that is speaking from experience. Your mind is always going 120 mph and you can't think logically. The pills they give you make you feel dull and non-existent.(GIVE UP THE PILLS) Your head aches, and you feel like throwing up when you eat. I've been there, and sometimes to this day that feeling creeps up on me.
You just have to keep faith in Maharaj, because you can turn away from Guru Ji, but Guru will never turn away from you.
AND SANGAT IS SOO IMPORTANT!!!!!!! (PM me if you need to talk)
I will do an ardass for you !
Fateh
ਮੇਰੀ ਸੰਗਤਿ ਪੋਚ ਸੋਚ ਦਿਨੁ ਰਾਤੀ ॥
Maeree Sangath Poch Soch Dhin Raathee ||
The company I keep is wretched and low, and I am anxious day and night;
ਮੇਰਾ ਕਰਮੁ ਕੁਟਿਲਤਾ ਜਨਮੁ ਕੁਭਾਂਤੀ ॥੧॥
Maeraa Karam Kuttilathaa Janam Kubhaanthee ||1||
My actions are crooked, and I am of lowly birth. ||1||
ਰਾਮ ਗੁਸਈਆ ਜੀਅ ਕੇ ਜੀਵਨਾ ॥
Raam Guseeaa Jeea Kae Jeevanaa ||
O Lord, Master of the earth, Life of the soul,
ਮੋਹਿ ਨ ਬਿਸਾਰਹੁ ਮੈ ਜਨੁ ਤੇਰਾ ॥੧॥ ਰਹਾਉ ॥
Mohi N Bisaarahu Mai Jan Thaeraa ||1|| Rehaao ||
Please do not forget me! I am Your humble servant. ||1||Pause||
Raag Gauri Bhagat Ravidas