Let your ego die. Remove desperation. Remove Guilt. Simply want and ask. Concentrate on the fact that everything in this place is temporal and unreal so there's no reason to get so caught up in it... the only thing that is certain is Waheguru, the wonderful and infinite teacher. Focus on the Naam, clear your head of all and immerse yourself in the profound knowledge of Waheguru by simply meditating on Waheguru's holy name and you will see and feel what it meant for you. All of your obstacles are illusions because Waheguru is above all and Waheguru is in You!