Thank you to everybody that replied, it was so lovely reading ur responses but I am really ashamed to say I don't know whats happened the desire to do saas saas simran has faded it, I am so dukhi because I thought maybe that was it maybe I am finally going to achieve the purpose of this life but no :'(
Not2cool2argue, veer ji I used to read a lot of shaakiya but I just don't have time anymore and it is only now that you have mentioned this that I have noticed what a loss it is ..... i will definitely begin reading again, i must take time out and understand it is not an option but the thing is sometimes with some saakhiya its like you know whats going to happen already, you know theres a problem and at the end Guru ji will make it better and sometimes that doesn't really motivate u to read more.... but saying this i hope what im going through is just a problem like we have in saakhiya and guru ji will come to my rescue too..
i remember you too :D you and harsharan veer ji, i remember learning loads from u guys!!! thank uuu!!!
Harsharan veer ji, that's so true but i cannot sit down to do simran, i started doing it in the evenings but it wasn't quiet enough but i did feel the difference i did feel peaceful ... i tried at amrit vela after doing nitnem but that was way to hard i feel fell asleep, in all honesty i don't have enough motivation to stay awake at amrit vela for a little longer .... especially as when i do meditate in actual fact all i am doing is still thinking about worldly thoughts ... life is so busy i just don't understand where i can get the time from... im still young yet its scary to think as i get older ill have less time and maybe i will never have time
Bundha, i think you are right maybe i had began to think that it was something ive achieved... maybe that's why it was taken away from me as mahraj ji probably thought im not ready for it after all but as you say mahraj ji is ang sang and if he is with me then anything can be achieved...
Preeet ji, i do try to listen to kirtan as much as i can but i don't listen to much waheguru simran to be honest, sometimes i feel like i have heard all the kirtan and i need something new and most of the kirtan now-a-days is in tunes of songs ... does anyone by any chance know the name of the kirtani who is from Bhai Bhalla ji's kul?
Yogi ji bilkul sahi keha a tusi, ohna de bachan sunn k ehda lagda hunda a k meh ehmi kithe fassi a, ohna de bachana toh hi shaanti mil jandi a... thank you i will surely do this...
Sikhni, this is my biggest weakness i do not understand bani as i should with gurur jis kirpa i raed bani and understand some but not to extent which will help tyaan develop and unite with guru ji... i don't know why i find it so hard to focus on the meanings as when they are there it seems all clear but my brain does not retain anything...
JKVlondon pen ji this is amazing, thank u!!!!! have u heard akalai wadhbhag singh jis story? its so sweet and beautiful...