As an Amritdhari woman, I found it difficult to take the first step into Sikhi by keeping my kesh and changing my rehat just because I wanted people to accept me. I feel like times are changing and there are fewer and fewer women that are wanting to take Amrit due to the fact that society has changed the standards of how a woman should live. Music videos, social media and schools are teaching kids to be a certain way and it's becoming difficult.
I hope you find your life partner. Stick to Sikhi and rehat, and let Guru Ji handle the rest.
Good luck!