first thing first, sikhi is not yours, not mine, not anyone's
if u were u to accept sikhi it was due to kirpa from guru sahib
do ardaas n ask guru sahib to be with u...since HE has done so much kirpa....
& HE will be there with u
dun bother wat others say bout.....u should only care wat guru sahib thinks.....we want guru sahib to be happy with us
its juz like being a top student in class
be the top student in sikhi
jap naam & do as much sewa as possible