Since sunday i've been doing more bani's and getting up at amritvela, am non-amritdhari btw. This was just to get me closer to Sikhee than I was before. I try my hardest during the week and then when my energy builds up and the end of the week, Kaam irrigates the mind, the mind takes the bait and fails. Afterwards I feel foolish and shameful, It's just so hard to keep consistency with me. Well I managed for 6 months, with Vaheguru's kirpa. But now I feel like am a failing Sikh, I should be truthfully not the opposite. What's the best method to tackle that urge and especially when you're own mind is saying do less bani and do bad things? I've read most of the Kaam related topics in this section and still the mind doesn't wake up and accept that it's bad to do these things.
Thank You.