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I am an amritdhari kaur. I have made many mistakes in my life like, i got too lazy to do nitnem one day or i do nindia of someone.. i get it i am not perfect and have made many, many countless mistakes that guroo sahib is aware of. but i am always trying to better myself as a gursikh. One of my favourite things to do is go into sangat, do sangat of other piare amritdhari singh and singhnia.. but today i have found out all this sangat has been judging me and spreading rumours about me (some false ones, some true but exaggerated or without knowing the full story making me look like the bad person).. most of this sangat i know and have seen around but i am always kept to myself i have never spoken to anyone except a fateh and small talk... so today i found it extremely upsetting and hurtful that this sangat has been talking about me behind my back and spreading these rumours meaning that the sangat i don’t know and havent spoken to wont speak to me ever thinking i am a bad gursikh.. and believing these rumours. i know guroo sahib knows all this but it’s so hurtful knowing those you thought were supposed to be your family are the ones warning others to stay away from you.. i feel so upset i feel like i cant even show my face in public without sangat judging me even though i have done nothing..