I Have Messed Up My Life Very Bad. I Am Mentally Weird.

[HKaur16]

I really love this thread! We have so many helpful Veers and Bhena with so much pyaar!

Thanks for your replies. I put the alarm on for 1am last night and got up at 3am. The alarm didn't wake me but I got up and did amrit vela. I went to bed at 10pm last night. I will go to sleep about 9/9:30 tonight and put the alarm on for 1am again.

But SinghGS I recommend drinking lots of water before going to bed so when your alarm goes off you have to get up to use the restroom. Along with Ardas that is the best method to get up during Amritvehla :biggrin2:

[SinghGS]

Okay, I'll drink lots of water. Can people please contribute to this thread why they get up at amritvela and what it gives them? So that we can all be inspired/motivated to do it. Thanks.

[harsharan000]

Dear SinghGS,

first of all, because just as Dhan Dhan Sree Guru Ram Das Maharaj , says :

gur satgur kaa jo sikh akhaa-ay so bhalkay uth har naam Dhi-aavai.
One who calls himself a Sikh of the Guru, the True Guru, shall rise in the early morning hours and meditate on the Lord's Name.

So, if I am a sikh, or call myself a sikh of the True Guru, I have to follow His orders, His wishes as a command, as Sat Bachan, as Hukum. And in following His orders as Hukum, lies our spiritual welfare.

We must be aware, that our main enemy is the mind. You yourself are a witness of what I am telling you, because you are going through it.

You want to do bhajan bandagee of Wahiguru, but the mind does not allow us, it says, it is o.k, you are tired, so continue to lie a little bit, do it later, what is the hurry for.... And we all know, once we give up, that later moment never comes....

Thus we have missed the chance to gather the spiritual wealth for that particular day.... Then again the mind makes one feel miserable, by making us feel guilty, that you are bad, you have not done your part .....

You see how clever and cunning it is? If you cooperate with it by giving in, you are sure to loose, then instead to make you feel somehow happy, by submitting yourself to it, again it rebukes you, to make you feel miserable for not doing it otherwise.....

So you see, we by ourselves can never ever defeat the mind ..... Not even devis, devtas, gods, rishis, munis, or even the tapasvees of the heights of Ravan, who conquered the three worlds, but could not defeat his mind, so in the end he died like a dog...

If all these higher beings can do nothing in this sense, then where do we stand? Naturally our condition is a pitiful one.....

But yes, there is a power superior to the mind, which can defeat it, but only if we take the refuge at their Holy Lotus Feet.

And these are none, but our very Guru Sahibans, who out of their love and grace for us, have left the Bani in SGGS for all of us the mankind, irrespective of caste, color or creed.

So, to defeat the mind, we have to follow implictly the hukum of Guru Jee. That also, not out of feeling obliged to do so, but out of love and faith at their Lotus Feet.

Then when we follow Gurmat in this way, Wahiguru is pleased, and then He just showers His Grace upon us, in the form of inner Amrit of His Naam.

Once we taste this Naam within, the mind just stops doing/playing its mischiefs, becomes pure, and is since then, our best friend, who cooperates with us at all times in our spiritual goal, of becoming one with Wahiguru.

So brother, getting up early and doing bhajan bandagee, has only benefits. It is for us, to make the most of our limited life, by gathering the wealth of Naam, which is the only thing, that goes with us, and helps us a lot in the spiritual realms.

Then doing bhajan/simran at the early hours has other benefits, like, there are no phone calls, no traffic noises, no radios or televisons on, the atmosphere is cool and calm... you see all these ingredients are necessary for meditation, concentration, simran.

But the main thing is to keep Him as our objective at all times, then nobody will have to tell us do this or that... we will have His Grace to know, what to do , and the will power also to do it...

Such is the mahanta of our beloved Wahiguru Akal Purukh, let us open our hearts to Him without any reservations...

He is continously blessing us, can´t we even devote ourselves to Him for a short time?

Is that too much to be done?

That also, that devotion we do, it is only for our benefits ...... we are not doing Him any favour by loving Him, but rather to ourselves alone.

Let us stop being lazy and silly, and just wrap ourselves as a garland of flowers at His Lotus Feet, by doing the only devotion which pleases Him the most, and that is His Simran....

Waheeeguruuuuu, toon atee Sundar, toon mero pyaro.

[SinghGS]

Thanks harsharan000. That is a very good post.

[hsingh8963]

Two nights ago I had gotten up but was about to go back to sleep then in my mind I remembered Guru Gobind Singh Ji still did amrit vela whilst being chased by Mughals that thought managed to get me up ... Once the cold water hit I was awake. Lol

[SinghGS]

I will make sure I get up tomorrow. Just wish I had the same motivation every day.

[hsingh8963]

http://m.youtube.com/watch?v=z24ELdZofLM

[SinghGS]

Thanks hsingh8963. That was a good video.

I feel I am spiritually weak. I am always thinking bad. I am always thinking of doing bad more than thinking of doing good. I don't do bad but it is a waste thinking bad isn't it. Also, if I am honest, something inside me doesn't want to follow truth. It feels like I will lose something. I know it's my ego but it is so strong. I want to be inspired to break free. My mind doesn't really get inspired.

[Guest Sat]

i went thru the same thing-maya tries to make us believe that by practicing truth- well lose our soul. In actuality, living in ego ties our soul to people, things in the khel(attachment). Hence the identities of people in this khel are shaped by their attachments.

eg. The rich woman will identify with and show her identity is of a wealthy woman,wheb she loses her wealth, she no longer knows who she is.

The woman tied to her beefcake hero of a husband will very often show ego of this fact and walk with ego of it.

When he starts telling her that he could get any girl he wants, that hes wasted his life on a plain average looking loser like her, she believes him and her identity is tarnished. She begins to hate the women he speaks to and eyes up on the street.

The model will identify herself with her career and walk in ego because of it-when people tell her shes not as pretty as the other models, she becomes bullimic, goes on a bender. She castes the evil eye on the other models in jealousy.

When u have no attachments, the dark threads that hook us to the false images in this khel are cut and we reclaim our soul fully, sitting in our own body while others continue to attach themselves to the khel, giving part of their soul to maya.

so, by practicing Truth, youre saving your soul and realising your true idenity to be Nothing- but Truth. U realise that u Are the whole universe. People will become immensley jealous of u, you may lose friends and family who cannot stand the jyot u exude, but thats normal. Look at pics of the gurus and the white light around them- thats living with no attachments- practcing truth- it's the sign of a being who lives Truth- others live in the darkness of ignorance- hence less jyot.

[Guest Sat]

Two nights ago I had gotten up but was about to go back to sleep then in my mind I remembered Guru Gobind Singh Ji still did amrit vela whilst being chased by Mughals that thought managed to get me up ... Once the cold water hit I was awake. Lol-

Jesus asked his diciples to stay awake and pray with him before he was to be captured and tortured by the jews- but they all went to sleep. He said to his disciples that their minds were willing but their flesh was weak.

Excercise is very important and eating healthily etc. ishnaan can help wake u up.