Sorry for your loss my friend. You’re still at a decent age to get remarried and have children. It’s only going to feel lonelier as the years roll on. Having children keeps people on track, motivated to keep working, and keeps one busy. You’ll feel a purpose to keep going in the face of inner demons dragging you down. Just some advice. You know yourself better than anyone, so make your decisions for yourself brother. If you still need time for healing for moving forward, I think that’s fine. But reality is going to remain the same, the sooner you catch up, the better for you.
No matter how much you are hurt and in pain, i know nothing will bring your wife back..she loved you and would want the best for you. Would she be okay to see you in this state today. She will always be a part of you and that can never change.
I know easier said then done, try to see we will all leave one day. My days could be numbered. Make most of each day, imagine its you last day, can you look back and say you'd have no regrets? How would your wife want you to live. She would want to see you happy and live your life to the fullest.
Grief never ends. Where there is deep grief, there is great love.