You have to take up the parts of Sikhi you want, or are capable of living up to. It sounds like you've had the Guru Granth Sahib forced on you.
Which means. Some Sikh things will work for you, and some wont until they're freed from the attachments and aversions to Sikhi.
So you may have to work outside angles and Sikhi both until Sikhi belongs to you not your family or people's perceptions.
Wondering how a person who was always inebriated had managed to reach Singhu, Balkar said, “He could not have gone there on his own. Somebody must have lured him with drugs or money.”
Thank you @Premi5