This is entirely your doing. Stamping your feet and pinning blame on other peoples and institutions is a weak move. Take responsibility for your actions. The CIS-het patriarchal structure didn't marry your woman under duplicitous circumstances; that was all you. Own your decisions. Good luck, brother. You're a top guy in a terrible situation. I wish I could do more for you.
I have not denigrated you for your sexuality.
If you were straight I would offer you the same advice.
Whatever your sexual orientation, you are an adult. Start acting like one.
I can't really help you beyond this point. You clearly need counselling, get some help.
I wish you all the best!
Why does it have to be only one way for one sex , there is spectrum of behaviour forboth sexes always have been. Guru Tej Bahadur ji recognised that women when in their true gurmat roop can be considered men's conscience and at worse can destroy a man's faith and rsolve like Hakikat Singh ji's mother.there are plenty of super men in our history butthat are alzo outnumbered by the drunkard lechers.We all have to be careful of all people of dodgy intent . Stay awake, but stay balanced , I've distanced from so many people because they have antigurmat ethics , it's just the times