Help with kaam and faith

[Guest MoorakhMugdaJanamPya]

WJKK, WJKF

I am a moorakh for falling into kaam and I have dug myself into a pit of faithlessness. This started a few months ago where I tried no fap and it somehow turned into a search for proof of god. I couldn’t find any proofs and should have known there is none because waheguru never lets his hand be shown to people who don’t look for it. I almost became atheist before realizing that calling the gurus mentally Ill or liars , the same jot that sacrificed their 4 sahibzade, sent their father to dehli to protect someone else’s dharam, the same jot whose institutions started in their first form still feed thousands every day, is so bleak. I try to let go of kaam but I fall back into this pit of “there’s no proof of god so just keep watching porn and <banned word filter activated> off”. I need help building my faith back and getting out of this weird pit I have dug myself into. I need help finding sangat to keep me away from this pit. Thanks.

[Not2Cool2Argue]

23 hours ago, Guest MoorakhMugdaJanamPya said:

WJKK, WJKF

I am a moorakh for falling into kaam and I have dug myself into a pit of faithlessness. This started a few months ago where I tried no fap and it somehow turned into a search for proof of god. I couldn’t find any proofs and should have known there is none because waheguru never lets his hand be shown to people who don’t look for it. I almost became atheist before realizing that calling the gurus mentally Ill or liars , the same jot that sacrificed their 4 sahibzade, sent their father to dehli to protect someone else’s dharam, the same jot whose institutions started in their first form still feed thousands every day, is so bleak. I try to let go of kaam but I fall back into this pit of “there’s no proof of god so just keep watching porn and <banned word filter activated> off”. I need help building my faith back and getting out of this weird pit I have dug myself into. I need help finding sangat to keep me away from this pit. Thanks.

You are right that sangat is your only cure. Because logic does not seem to work with your mind. Also tell your mind, what will watching gandh and living a nihilist negative atheistic life do anything for anyone? Isn't it better to believe in something positive, as it will stop you wasting your life.

So where are you located so we can help you find sangat.

Also discipline and action can also save you. Thoughts alone will not. Read posts by someone named Sat on here. They say get up at 5. Do 1 hour simran and japji sahib. Then go to work. Then work out for 1 hour. Then rehraas sahib and listen to 30 mins of kirtan. Then go to sleep early. Do this for 1 week. Avoid internet. 

Instead of sangat of people, you can do sangat of guruji. Which is by hanging out with guruji. Which occurs by listening to kirtan, looking at God's creation (going out in nature) and listening to katha and reading gurbani.

Check out dodra samagam website and akj.org for places to attend sangat. Use Google maps to find closest  gurudwaras. 

[Guest Moorakh]

I have Gurdware nearby and they are close enough to walk. I will do what you have said. I can’t believe I fell from such a high level in preparation for taking Khande Bate Da Amrit to where I am now. If I fall again I know I have support from the cyber sangat as well. Thank you.

[dharamyudh]

Best way is to start doing your nitnem (this includes Rehras, aarti, and kirtan sohila)  and getting up for amritvela. Afterwards, do ardas and tell Maharaj "I will stay away from this stuff, only through your kirpa and daya." This ardas should be done after every nitnem or simran session as it is a constant reminder because you're doing it multiple times in the day. 

[Dsinghd]

Kaam won’t go away completely at once.

It will go away step by step.

We have to build a Jeewan.

[Guest Moorakh]

I relapsed today but I tried what I could. I am doing panj baniya in the morning now and my faith is getting stronger.

I thank you guys for giving support when I needed the most. Hopefully if I keep my rehit for a few more months I will take amrit on vasakhi.

[Not2Cool2Argue]

Keep it up. Ups and downs happen.  But you are judged on your effort on not giving up. Welcome to the khalsa brotherhood

[dharamyudh]

On 12/11/2022 at 12:33 AM, Guest Moorakh said:

I relapsed today but I tried what I could. I am doing panj baniya in the morning now and my faith is getting stronger.

I thank you guys for giving support when I needed the most. Hopefully if I keep my rehit for a few more months I will take amrit on vasakhi.

Hey bro, 

Don't let yourself get down. Relapse and learning is all apart of the process.  Implementing your bani really helps, trust me. Remember to keep reminding yourself after each ardas. 

[Guest Moorakh]

There’s this Shabad on Reddit I like to listen to or repeat to myself when the urge hits. Really helps but I guess maya is pretty strong as well. Kaljug is hitting pretty hard rn lol.

https://www.reddit.com/r/Sikh/comments/z15d6j/visualization_of_gurbani_shabad_on_kaam/?utm_source=share&utm_medium=ios_app&utm_name=iossmf

[Guest Guest.]

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