Waheguru Ji Ka Khalsa
Waheguru Ji Ki Fateh
Its really strange how the five vikaars (thieves) shows themselves in different forms. Like Maskeen Singh Ji said the other day on Alpha you think you've conquered one and the others set in and so forth.
Something I find really difficult is controlling ego. A few days ago whilst listening to katha (gurbani discourse) at the gurdwara the kathakaar was talking about the loving relationship between a gursikh and his Guru. He gave a few examples and went on to say about the virtues of a gursikh, how he serves with total devotion through sewa and simran, forever remains humble and stays in hukam. And he ended it by saying there are only rare gursikhs as such who adpot and practise this way of living.
During the whole time my ego was getting a big boost when I know I'm nowhere near to such a way of life. The ego inside me kept saying yep thats me, sewa - another tick and so forth. I went out the darbaar feeling my ego had been just fed big time. Even sometimes when entering the darbaar I can hear myself saying - look everyone its me! I'm here now! (this is happening way too often)
Anyone else get the same and how do you control it?
I hope this has made some sense and forgive me for any mistakes