Kaeza

more serious issues? leave it out buddasingh..no need for that.

With regards to mskcan.....that bit about the sakhi of a man who met the 10th guru....sometimes when i do have certain feelings and think bout certain things...then there is this sense of someone watching me.... but what does that mean? to be honest i havent got a clue bout all that allusory stuff u were talkin about and that went right over my head the thing is that iv always been uncomfortable with my amrit since the age of like 14..now im 21 and i still feel uncomfortable about it. Iv tried many times to go gurudwara more and try and feel more for sikhi but sometimes its just not there. I used to love sikhi soo much, i loved doing tabla, vaja, dhadh/sarangi.....but then as i grew older it just went away. Sometime i think that im just keeping my amrit to keep others happy and not "rustle any feathers" so to speak sorry to keep going on but i dont know where else to ask people....

thanks everyone for the help....i have changi sangat...none of my friends drink...do drugs or eat meat. we all go sikh society at univeristy together etc etc.... ive been taught that the reason we keep our facial hair is to show that we dont care about our appearance and that we have given up the ego...but just no matter how much i try i am still not comfortable with my appearance. sometimes i think i might have been forced a little into taking my amrit when i was younger as i would definitly not take it at this age i am at now...but i jus need some kind of direction and i dont know where to get it from?? pul chuk maaf

Hi people, im new to this site. I have been amritdhari for a long time now but I have never really been comfortable with it. The main reason is because of my appearance...i dont feel confident having a long dhari and I am just not the same confident person i used to be. everytime i leave the house and walk down the street i am soo consious about how i look and i find that even when im talkin to people im thinkin about how i look to them. I kno it might seem very vain but im struggling with it and i always have been. if i was to cut my dhari then i wud still do my paath and do all the things that i love about sikhi but the only thing that wud be diferent wud be that i trim. i know lots of people who have broken their amrit and started on the alcohol and drugs etc etc but i wud never do that and have never thought about doing things like that. again i know it sounds vain but i just want to feel more comfortable with my appearance. What shall i do?