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Sangat ji just want to know how many of you have similar feelings and routine like me, or its only me. When i listen to any katha or jeevni of any mahapurkhs, i decided in my mind immediately that from now onwards, i will also do intense naam simran and will remember God all the time, i also started to make schedules in my mind about how many paaths and how much time i will do simran from now onwards, And then i sit for Waheguru simran with full mood(thinking of not to stop simran for atleast 2,3 hrs minimum) Soon after 15,20 mins, my legs started to sleep( and feels like my feet are heating up, nd back statred to have kind of stretch pain in it,) I then started to move legs etc to get relaxed again but after 5,7 mins more it seems unable to continue sitting more, Then i always thought if i cant sit, its simran so i can do it by laying on bed, once i lay down, what time i found myself sleeping, dnt knw. Similarly sometimes i get up early morning like 2am and when sit for simran after shower etc, i felt sleepy and my legs dnt let me do simran in one stable pose. Sometimes i sit with firm commitment that this time i will not getup without finishing 5 japji sahibs and i will do slowly and loudly But when I finish just one japji sahib, about 15 mins, i started to feel hard for reciteing it loud Nd I started to do slowly on lips And when i about to finish the second japji sahib, sleepy and feet are heating from where it touch thighs, I am very much interested to do simran bhagti but every time i end up with nothing but just little time, and it feels me very sad that i am young 26 , nd i am wasting time not able to do proper simran, then how will i do simran if gets old? Today statred to do sukhmani sahib at 1pm, nd after 4 ashtpadia i felt very sleepy, the only problem that i feel is my sitting, i sit cross leg nd cant sit more than 20 mins Or 30 maximum. I read sangats replies on sikhsangat forum suggesting to try lotus pose, tried about many times but i cant even think of it, seems like i need to break my legs to sit in lotus pose. I always wonder Guru sahib first gave me human life in a house where alcohol , hunting and meat etc are hobbies, dad used to teach me how to eat eggs and meat, told me that u should trim hairs as other kids cant win fight with u, i was 7 then, but slowly Guru ji gave me sangat of gurmukhs, became interested in sikhi and now there is nothing i want except for simran and sikhi. I always pray guru ji u gave me good understanding of human life real aim, but i cant sit for longer time Please bless me with sitting for many hours, And u beleive sangat ji, every time i do ardas, i have confirm faith that this morning when i will sit for simran, i will sit for hours as guru ji have listened to my ardas, But again i end up with 20 mins Till now whatever i did ardas for Guru sahib fulfilled it, but for this i am trying hard now and no hope, Nd people say that u can sit on chair, simran is acceptable in any pose but the reality is there is no satisfaction for doing simran sitting on chair, i need to sit in cross leg. I was all india level athlete, have good athletic legs but dnt know what the hell is wrong with my sitting. The purpose of posting here is that some of u who read this post, are very near to satguru ji, some of u are very chardikala waale gurmukhs for sure, some of u do a lot of simran for sure, I request u to please please do ardas to satguru ji that i can sit in stable pose for long time, Please dont just forget to do ardas for me. I will take amrit next year once i have a good nitnem and simran for 2,3 hrs Waheguru ji ka khalsa Waheguru ji ki fateh