VJKK VJKF Ji,
Guru Saheb blessed me amrit di daat some 8 9 year ago. I had been doing naam bani but unfortunately, couple of years back I shift to new place and I got involved with the group of people who apparently been doing sangat but had crushed me with false allegations. I can't go to clubs and pubs to make new friends. It is only sangat where I can find gursikhs, but they threw me out very badly. I was very broken as I never expected someone doing religious rituals and renowned for gursikhi to turn out to be such an evil. During this hard time I lost my regular nitnem and then it was just as a matter of doing it to fulfill the requirement.
During this a girl contact me for which my family was looking for a relationship, I got so much involved with her and ended up in bajar kureht. I got married to her then. I am afraid even if I married her only will this be still a bajar kureht?
I accept I am bad and did bad please dont scold me sangat ji I am already broken. I fold my hands to you please don't hate me I wish to revive and be of any use to panth. I am very loonely and heartbroken.
Thank you for taking time to read this.
May guru saheb bless you.