Depressed. I feel so suicidal. I know I shouldn't feel like this as I'm amrithdari and path and gurbani should stop this. However no aspect of my life is going right. Before I took amrith I committed some really bad sins ever since my family have not dropped what I did now I have accepted I was in the wrong I turned my life over. Since I've been amrithdari I find nothing's really going right I'm staring to loose faith I took amrith on my own decision but since I've taken it I've made some terrible mistakes, I've got into a abusive relationship with a singh who then cheated on me and ruined my future, my family look down at me as if I'm a failure and friends I have nobody to turn to. I did turn to Sikh helpline however I wouldn't ever recommend anyone turns to them as they are not confidential. I rang and Spoke to someone next thing my full gurdwara knew my problems. I'm stuck I have nobody to turn to my family are not talking to me and I'm on the edge of suicide.