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Waheguru Ji Ka Khalsa Waheguru Ji Ki Fateh I feel like giving up now. I can't do Path properly, today I tried doing Japji Sahib. I just couldnt do it took me more than an hour to recite it, it took me 40 minutes to do 3 Pouree's. My head feels blocked, and I can't recite anything. I tell my self to man up, still can't do it. During Path i start to swear at Guru Ji, get bad thoughts about the sangat, for example my mind wishes bad stuff to my brother and sisters (the sangat) who are progressing in Sikhi. But why do i want bad stuff to happen to my own family . I feel like whats the point, I dont deserve to be a Sikh. I don't think im strong enough. This is heart breaking for me, things where going well over the past 2 years I was blessed with Kesh, getting more into Sikhi. I can't do Nitnem takes me way to long, to do one bani sometimes, I need to revise for my exams as well which start in a week, but if i don't i feel like Guru Ji was just abandon me. I really don't what to do, if i can't do Japji Sahib properly after trying for more than a year, then im just stuck in one place. I just want to start slowly again, but that guilt really gets me. Im probably annoying the Sangat on here, with these questions, but its the only people I can talk to. Im sorry Guru Ji. Please forgive me if i said anything wrong or offensive.