Basically, long story short, I used to be a guy who was always intoxicated with something. One day, guruji has blessed me and I had stopped all of the above inc meat and began to walk the path of the saints. Life got on top, my Sangat had changed and now I’m back to square 1. I’ve started it all back up. When I smoke, I can’t stop thinking of the creator and I feel so bad when I think of him. I deep down desire nothing more than to walk the path of the saints but how does one stop this? What does gurbani say about people that lose the self control aspect of sikhi? Does this make me a manmukh?