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Almost everyone tells me I’m blessed, I come from a wealthy background, I’m blessed with good looks and I’m at a top uni and a model for a famous clothing brand, but I have a very big secret I have never told anyone, I think I’m bi. I think I am because I’ve never done anything with someone the same sex but I have fancied and been attracted to them. the only way I fight this urge is to sleep with anyone. I feel shame writing this on a Sikh religious forum but I feel like for you to help me you need to understand all the details, I will sleep with any girl I find attractive. Gori, Hindu, Muslim anyone. If I have this feeling of attraction to another male, then I’ll just go on my phone, message a girl on insta and meet her up. I have loads of girls as friends with... (I know I have no morals). If I come into Sikhi then I’ll need to obviously stop this and It’s the only way I can get over it. I don’t want to get married yet, so I don’t know what else to do. my parents have just recently become religious and they’ve Amrit chakh. I’ve been reading about the amazing sacrifices that the Sikhs had done and it really amazes me, I would like to one day be like my parents but I doubt it because of 1. My bi stuff and I don’t know how else to stop it and 2. It’s obviously a very big commitment and I’m living a life of sin atm and I’m going to have to practice to get out of it. I’m fairly new to sikhi even though I was born in a Sikh family, so could you please use “simple” words as in not too religious words if that makes sense, or if you have to could you just translate them. I understand Punjabi and I can speak it but obviously “religious/gurmukhi” words I don’t understand, like I had to research what Sangat meant. Please help me Sangat ji, I dunno if I’ll completely commit myself to sikhi as it’s still early doors, but maybe you can help me out of my disgusting problem. Oh and I’m not a troll, I’m saying this because I have read some threads and people are saying this is a troll this and that. Trust me I have better things to do than spend 10 mins writing about my life because it just makes me feel like sh!t and disgusted with myself.