Sanagt ji i am so ashamed to say i am an amritdhari who does full nitnem but i have still fallen into the trap of kaam, i dont know how but i ended up watching a porn video last week and ever since then i cannot help it i end up watching something or another... i hate it but still i do not know how it happens.
I feel ashamed i feel as if mahraj ji must be so angry with me i keep telling myself to do simran whilst walking around ... i couldnt always do it before but now i hardly can at all ... i feel as if mahraj ji is going to punish me .. please sangat ji it is my request Guru ji never says no to the sangat.... although i am not worthy but the trap of kaam is worst of all ... please may i break free ... i hope mahraj ji see's this post as a form of ardas and request to him to help me ... it is only early day i do not want to be addicted :'( i am so scared