Greetings to all. This is my first of a whole line of threads I will be making. Im here in such of help & adivce and for all other reasons.
Im sure many of you who read this will be able to relate to how i found & discovered Sikhi in depth. in at 19, living in the U.K, through my mid teens I went through the worst, faceing things, lost in kam and turning to it insted of the Guru and after a while i had the power to stop that to a level and focus on Sikhi.
Iv reached a stage where i can control 4 of the 5 evils so good, as we all know these evils will come to you no matter how strong you are at fighting them off, though if you can you have nothing to be worried about. I dont drink, or smoke, eat meat and things are looking on the up compared to a few months, rather years before.
But what iv discovered latley is that i cant go any further with my surroundings, your company can be your downfall and my family i think is that. I live with my father who doesn't believe in waheguru ji, my brother who is in his early teens, the normal I Pod listening, car loving, with the gelled hair boy who hasn't the idea of sikhi and my mother, with the western up bringing who all though has faith in waheguru ji doesn't bother to take sikhi to another level even when i have talked to her which is fair enough as we all find our way individually. I love my mother, father & brother but i living here is hard in a sense where i dont feel free to feel waheguru ji within or anything else.
I can be on the p.c listening to the daily hukamnama, kirtan or anything got to do with Sikhi and someone will walk in having somthing to say.
The higiene of the house that i live in is no joke.
The smell of meat being cooked. Fish, chicken, pork, bacon, lamb. All entering my room what makes me sick.
The way of talking and communicating, useing foul words, anger at times, the loud cheering over somthing small.
So much more i can say and im sure this is in alot of other punjabi sikh house holds in the UK and anywhere else (however more or less). I really can't live around this. Yess i have tried to sit and talk in a civil a fair way. My father says when you get your own house you can do what you like, my mother doesn't know what to say and thinks i take Sikhi too far which im sure other parents have said to their children and my par ji waheguru ji bless him is still young but like nearly all in that age of being lost though hes still growing like any other young man. Theres no where else i can go and im still in Education.
I Always picture of my very own house, inside being so simple, a room which has white sheets over the carpet, silverware, pictures of Guru Ji on the wall (of course without being worshiped), and all you can here is kirtan. I just want a Sikhi environment. this is really having a effect.
