BHENJI , I UNDERSTAND YOUR PROBLEM , KYONKI MEI BHI USSI HALAAT TO GUZAR KAR AA REHA HAA .
MY ENTIRE CHILDHOOD HAS BEEN WASTED ON SEEING MY FATHER GETTING DRUNK AND RUINING PEACE AT HOME . TODAY , I AM 20 YEAR OLD ( MALE) , BUT EVEN TODAY , I CAN FEEL THAT THOSE DAYS HAVE LEFT A BAD IMPRESSION ON MY MIND .
THE FIRST TIME I SAW MY DAD DRINKING AND CAUSING PROBLEMS WAS WHEN I WAS IN JUNIOR K.G .
AND SINCE THEN , MY DAD HAS A DRINKING ATTACK AFTER EVERY 6 MONTHS OR SO WHEN HE STARTS DRINKING AS IF ALCOHOL IS IS HIS LIFE .
MY WISE MOTHER HAS ACTED LIKE A CEMENT IN THESE HARD SITUATIONS KEEPING 3 OF US TOGETHER .
OTHERWISE , MY DAD HAS PROVIDED ME WITH WHATEVER I ASK FOR . HE IS HARDWORKING AND A NICE MAN .
HE LOVES ME , BUT MY EXPERIENCE HAS INDEED ETCHED ON MY PSYCHE , WHICH WAHEGURU JI ONLY KNOW WHAT WILL LEAD ME TO .
GURU BHALA KARE , YOU ARE NOT ALONE .
KEEP YOUR DHARAM STEADFAST . GURU IS TAKING A TEST AND YOU WILL PASS , JUST HAVE FAITH ON DHAN DHAN GURU GOBIND SINGH JEE MAHARAJ . ALL UNIVERSE IS UNDER HIS CONTROL.