I feel the exact same way... and also wanna go back to the old me... I have never touched any drugs or alcohol in my life so the, "old me" was just the same person without dastaar and dhari.. Since birth I was always into sikhi and in college I kept my hair and took amrit after desiring to do so for many years.... lately I want a change my outlook to the way I used to be.. lately I've been getting tired of people looking at me which is starting to make me uncomfortable... My parents never forced me or asked me to keep my hair, my fiancé has always been supportive from the time of keeping my hair to this point of being confused. I really never had any gursikh sangat, I dont know if thats playing any role in being little confused.... Like I get it, I get the history and everything that has to do with it, what I keep asking myself is that if God is one then God will love me regardless of my image and as long as I stay the same person as I am... Also I am the only child so sometimes it gets hard to talk parents about the stuff I am going through... I don't know if its school related stress is getting to me or what it is... I cant point a finger at it... its just I wanna be able to not wear anything on my head and just be sort of be free... My desire to change back is not any sort of attention from girls or a easier life ..... Please do provide any feedback...... sorry for the long post....
