Waheguru ji ka khalsa Waheguru ji ki fateh.
Firstly I would like to say that what I am about to say is in no way the way I feel in real life or towards Baba Guru.
Earlier this week, thoughts of my religion and the gurus mixed with thoughts that should never be repeated in real life - for that reason I will not say them or write them down as I feel so disgusted that I have even thought of them.
I feel so bad, I have even cried to God to forgive me, however when ever seeing an image of our beloved Guru's, the memory of this thought comes back.
I pray to God that I do not mean any of them, and that he will understand that I do not mean any of them. But I also ask, Will he? These thoughts are not going away, and are upsetting me more since I think about them much more.
I come to ask you, my fellow Sikh Brothers/Sisters, how I can go about praying for God forgiveness.
I will be honest, I am not the most religious Sikh, however I believe in my religion and God - and always go to him for help.
Please help me as I feel very upset - And I honestly do not mean any of these thoughts.
Thank you for reading.