God grace I use to go to amritvela simran with sangat daily and I was overjoyed happy just loved it. Last year I began working full time job n it was at night so I would miss amritvela simran.
I feel miserable without that sangat n simran and really dont have interest in earning so much money I just need a little to survive n I don't have interest in marriage or kids.
When I'm at work I'm 99 percent of the time watching sangat on YouTube during simran and participating.
Kind of feel depressed without being there and life seems pointless without simran n sangat.
I use to be