With maharajs apaar kirpa beant kirpa, I have been doing my nitnem and practicing to tie a dastaar and become vegetarian. I still can't properly tie a dastaar yet. I have been begging for Amrit for so long. Some days I feel so upset because I still haven't been blessed with Amrit. But I do manage console myself with telling myself to be patient and have trust. I really don't know but at this moment I feel my soul is dying without amrit or without maharajs bani. Any bani, keertan, simran that I recite, I feel it's not enough and I can't get over it. I just went to the gurdwara yesterday and I f