well done sukhjeevansingh!!!!! I am very happy for you. We are all one loving family here on sikhsangat willing to help you clear those few things on your mind so u can take Amrit asap. There are a lot of really blessed fired up/charged up wonderful gursikhs on this forum that will give you every help to clear your mind either by private pms or just by posting your thoughts on here ,wivout judging you. As they say... been there done it,hahaaa. All you need is to say what you need -further reading materials , cds etc . This wonderful journey to Sikhi and Amrit is not a lonely one, as countless amounts of gursikhs will be your true sincere humble friends every inch of the way .
Waheguru Ji Ka Khalsa Waheguru Ji Ki Fateh
Thankyou Bhaji! "been there done it" hahahaha that made me smile! Its just little things really. Well i figured that my manmukhi mind was trying to stop me from being a gurmukh, creating feeble little excuses like "what if i miss my paath" (baba Ranjit singh cleared that one for me: "Dont do it, if you do ever then do twice as much the next day" but some people and some thoughts going in my mind are worrying that my education may hinder my rehat. Well people say when i go to sixthform (September with Sache Pathshah's blessing) and then Uni (if I do) then i won't be able to concentrate on my studies. But I understand that my Gursikhi Jeevan should come first and then everything else as secondary...my worry is that for example during exam period if i need to stay up late to revise and then wake up in the morning aswell to revise before my exam and end up missing my Paath delibrately (as i chose to revise) or say I need to stay up to finish coursework or something and that means i don't read Kirtan Sohila sahib or have the energy to do my nitnem in the morning..how bad is that? im sure i sound really stupid but you know Baba ji gave me his number so i might have to ring up.. but like he'll know when i'm just making an excuse... Because when he told me to take amrit.. i was like what if i cant keep rehat...and he was like how old are you..i was like 15.. he was like of course you can keep rehat i was 12 when i took amrit. i was like :umm: . If anyone could just give some help i'd be so greatful.