I feel a sense of guilt whenever I think of my parents because I have failed to live up to their expectations. Their expectations have been pretty reasonable but I just cannot meet them. Its my fault, 95% of people could have been able to do this but not me. My mother was ill for years when I was younger and this placed a massive strain on everyone. Now that I am older I feel it is my duty to make them happy but I cannot. I am stuck in a job I hate, I feel that nothing whatsoever is going for me. My brother doesn’t care, he does whatever he wants to do without caring about the consequences. Its up to me to try to make them happy but I am failing and I feel so sad because of this. I’ve lost touch with all the friends I used to have, most of them are now married and busy with their own lives, so I cannot talk to anyone about how I feel.
I used to find some peace in going to the Gurdwara but not any more. What should I do? I see other people married, good jobs, good health and their family is happy, why can’t that happen to my family?