here's a poem written by someone i know
Just Once
I've forgotten You, but You still remembered me.
I've left You behind, but You still stood close to me.
I've told You lies, but You still trust me.
I've failed many times, but You still have faith in me.
I try to give it my all, I try to reach out for You.
I want that eternal bliss.
I'm on a battle field surrounded by my weaknesses.
I know I have to win this.
My mind is deceiving and manipulative.
I can't give in.
I'm being pulled towards my worst nightmare, which at times can seem so perfect.
I'm losing power, I’m shutting down
I can't do this...I'm falling.
I'm trying to fight back.
I just can't
I've been defeatedMy tear streaked face is pale...ghost-like.
I'm feeble.
My soul is yearning, calling out...
It's burning with pain.
We need YOU.
You are my saviour...You are my life. Without You…I'm dead.
My head is throbbing painfully.
Just once...one time...let me feel at peace…
Let me be at Your feet...
Let me overcome my ego...my greed...and any other worldly attachment I may have.
Let me say Your name and feel overcome with love for You.
Just once...Let me truly love You...
Just once...
And let that once time be so great...that it is my last time.
Let that one time be the one to let me come back home to You
My Waheguru....