WJKK WJKF,
Bhainji, those thoughts are beautiful.
I don't have an essay but.... just a few thoughts...
When I think of love, in this world, I'm so confused about it, so I wont even touch that aspect of it.
When it comes to Guru ji and love though, I know for myself, I feel like a jealous child.
I always find myself wondering: why Guru ji doesn't love me as much as the next person?
or
Why has Guru ji chosen that person, given that person the wisdom to love God so unconditionally?
or
When is Guru ji gonna put that love in my heart?
It's funny that these thoughts come, even though Guru ji tells us, and shows us over and over again, that God does not love one more then the other. All his children are equal to him, still the mind doesn't understand.
There are days you just close your eyes and long to feel the love. And it's there, just ... we aren't able to recognize it. We arn't able to accept it. I believe that .. because of the way we view "love" in this world and the way we define love here, we are unable to appreciate and understand the love that Guru ji has for us or the love that we are capable of feeling for Guru ji.
Just some foolish thoughts from a confused mind... so if I've said anything wrong, Bhul Chuk Maaf