।ਵਾਹਿਗੁਰੂ ਜੀ ਕਾ ਖ਼ਾਲਸਾ।।ਵਾਹਿਗੁਰੂ ਜੀ ਕੀ ਫ਼ਤਹਿ।
I would start with an Ardas from the heart - e.g. Guru ji, I've failed, please help me out of the darkness - and take a hukamnama (online if you want). Remember the Mahapurakhs, their Jeevan, the miracles. Remember the price that Bhai Taru Singh was ready to give for his Kesh. To be scalped alive and bleed for over 20 days while still reading Japji Sahib and in Anand. Why did he go and do that instead of living a worldly life? Puzzled Bhaji, it's because Guru Sahib is the full truth.
These 2 videos will help, quite inspirational.
।ਵਾਹਿਗੁਰੂ ਜੀ ਕਾ ਖ਼ਾਲਸਾ।।ਵਾਹਿਗੁਰੂ ਜੀ ਕੀ ਫ਼ਤਹਿ।।