Regret

[Guest Regret]

Hello everyone

Lately i was feeling very confused... A bit bored and felt alone..

Surving on fb, I saw this familyfriend, who could be an potential marriage partner, but im still studying shouldnt be busy with these things. i dont know why but I already felt something for him, and the fact I know my mom likes him for future husband wasnt helping either.. So I added him. This is totally out of my character. I never add boys-talk too much to them, Im very careful with these things. On the internet things go quicker and I dont want anyone to think wrong of me

. But in one way it felt oke. He actually was very decent told me he doesnt want to talk much and give me weird feelings..i was glad we were on the same page. i told him i dont want to get into moh, he said lets keep our limits, and be good friends. We didnt talk much (3/4 times) but when we would I was the one who started and he would keep going and say im good untill ur good. I noticed he was getting flirty.. Sending me his pics.. But I was allowing him..I felt respected by him and I felt i wasnt any time pass for him. He would ask what I think about joint family etc. So i felt he is also looking at me as an potential future partner.. feelings getting stronger. We had like really long conversations about work/family and joking around. I always mentioned I was worried about what family would say about us keeping contact and he said dont worry etc. I can stop if u want me to stop. One should have fun in life then regret it later...

So one day I got into an conversation with my mom about trust and things going on internet... i felt really sneaky and I shouldnt hide things from my parents, read katha from Sant Maskeen Ji. Jo v kam chupaya jaanda oh gannda hunda. So i asked my mom if shes oke we added each other. She was like no people always take it wrong. Even though u know him..u know his other family too did u add them as well? Then i felt like what am I doing, if my sanjog is with him it will happen I should absolutely not get into this shitt. My mom thinks He added me on fb, but I already talked a lot to him! So I ended it by saying we should keep busy with our lives and leave it all to God. He didnt respond and i got confused about It..And a few days later I said can I call you (he gave me his nr to add on whatsapp but i wasnt feeling it) he responded saying i just considered us as good friends nothing more than that. Im sorry if I said or did something wrong. What do u want to talk about when are u free usually. I said im confused about things we should talk in the weekend then were both free. Weekend came and I asked him are u free. He said ill let u know and he never texted back. i feel soooo stupid. Why did I in first place add him on fb and then open up so quickly to him. Why did I wanted to call him. Damn i never called a boy! After this ive done a lot of paath, while doina ardas and saying kaam krodh lob moh hankaar to becha ke rakhna i dont know what happened but I started crying and I couldnt stop

. I know I did good by stopping it, there is still a lot of time till marriage. A lot can happen in between. but I cant get over this regret. i was the one allowing him to talk to me. If i was stronger this wouldnt happen. I take it as a lesson. Guruji once again showed me what I am. A lot of people were saying to me im a good girl etc. I think hankaar took me over. Maharaaj showed me that im nothing..

But stil I feel so much regret and i worry a lot about what he is thinking about me? Did he really just consider me as a friend? He might think i was after him, or think im crazy... i feel guilty towards him. i feel responsible for all this. I was the one who searched for it... If I would never add him, or be the first one who talks I could avoid all this. Honestly, i dont even have the butterflies anymore. Rabb ne sachi meri okaad dikha diti...im young and need to focus on studies, sikhi and family. But still this keeps me busy in my mind...and I cant let it go.. Been almost a month but I still feel this regret..cant ever eye him again without shame...

[simran345]

What's happened has happened let it go now.

You are having feelings for him, its obvious otherwise you would not feel you did anything wrong. you feel you have been rejected and it makes you look like a fool. Dont fall for his drama .

He is the one that sent you the pics, he is getting on with his life dont even care about what you going thru. Read your post yourself from third persons view. Can't you see what's happened.

He has been clever when you contacted him, waiting for you to do the moves and kept quiet himself. Then created emotions in you so you go after him. That's what he has done now, why send the pics and ask those questions if just friends.6

My dear you have been played, so blame him as much as yourself, he saw you as naive. Now dont want to know you as maybe his eyes are elsewhere or just simply doesn't like you.

Stop all this nonsense of if if if,he was future husband etc. Dont fall for guys thinkin they will marry you just like that. Be strong. Be a sherni, and dont let the sherni go after a mouse. You got side tracked that's all. Learn from it.

he would keep going and say im good untill ur good. Meaning if you allow him to play you he will. Waiting for you to say something wrong. So how much respect does that show? No need to say that if you respect someone.