dont know what to do

[Guest k singh]

hi,

im 17 now and i took amrit when i was 11, i was very religious and felt a real passion for sikhi when i was young, so i did what any passionate sikh would do and took amrit at a very early age. as i got older it became harder and i lost the passion i had for sikhi and got really lazy and i had a bad inflance in school, i didnt feel like an amrit dhari anymore and den it went down hill from there, i did aot of things i really regret, and i proberbly did and hav broke my amrit now ive started to better myself now and started doing paat and going to gurdwara every morning before school and alot of things to make myself closer to god, ive started to get more into sikhi again but the thing is i know i have already broke my amrit and i can tell my parents i want to take it agian coz i would have to confess for what i did but sadly i cant do tht they wont be able to handle it, so i dont know what to do? i still wear my 5ks and i never left my 5k's even while doing everything, but i feel wrong pretending to be amrit dhari. help asap please!! i promised myself i would b=never do anything bad again and i wont, i want everything to go back to the way it was when i was young and it kind of is but i keep reebering my past

[GuptUnknown]

Tell your parents you have to go pesh, cant tell them. Tell everything to the punj pyare, all your actions etc. Go from there

[Guest k.singh]

parents will not let me go pesh until they know what the reasons is

[Not2Cool2Argue]

Say u accidently ate meat. A cookie had eggs and u didn't know.

It's a lie, so it up to u.........

But to the panj pyare tell the WHOLE truth..

[DaljitKaur24]

I think you need to just be honest with them at tell them what is the reason. Being a Sikh it's ur duty to tell the truth. I personally took amrit around that age too because I was young and was "influenced" by my family. I did take it but never truly accepted being a Amrit Dhari from my heart because I felt as if I was pushed into taking Amrit and didn't take it from my heart. So I went to my grandpa because he's a very strict Amrit Dhari and told him about it(I stayed Amrit Dhari for a year) because I thought he would have understood. But no he got really mad off at me and was like "Sikhi nu mazaak samjaya a." He was right in his part too but for me I thought of it as why be a Amrit Dhari if I fully don't feel it from my heart? So I told my parents and went to pesh. I feel horrible to this day but I felt that was the right thing to do. When Guru ji will do mehr it will happen but it should happen truly from your heart.

[TigerStyleZ]

We are humans - we all make fails - we learn of out mistakes - thats why we are SIKHS . LEARNERS ! I guess, you are caught in this mumbo jumbo "ritualistic " sikhi? Let of the guilt and starts accepting the failure you did, contemplate the words of Guru and don´t blindly repeat them! If you don´t understand read in english... Then if you have all guts back tell your parents... A Sikh fears no one.. He respects everyone.. And tell your parents with respect what you did! They aren´t perfect as well.. I bet they made mistakes in their life too!