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After a couple of years now of seriously contemplating suicide I’ve considered the consequences and the extremity of each of them, understanding that such extremity doesn’t exist. In my eyes, any temporary matters in life such as friends, so called family, ‘happiness’, will neither suffer nor will have any ability in changing my mind at the point I’m at.

Most of me is gone by now, but there is still a droplet of Amrit left inside that won’t let me commit such a crime, but I’m afraid that with time, my mind will take control and I won’t be opposed to such an idea of not existing any longer.

I’m sinking more than ever now

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vaheguru ji ka khalsa
vaheguru ji ki fateh, ji

Sat Sri Akal, Kaur ji. 1stly I ask for forgiveness for my mistakes in this post.. If not already, I would suggest doing seva daily at any gurdwara ji.. It helps give chardikala. Doing dishes/shoe seva daily (for example*) at the gurdwara ji while chanting 'ਸਤਿਨਾਮੁ ਵਾਹਿਗੁਰੂ ਸਤਿਨਾਮੁ ਵਾਹਿਗੁਰੂ' helps a lot. Other than that, trying to do sri sukhmani sahib ji daily is beneficial as well (as are other gurbani path jis). Furthermore, think of paath as motivation.. See it as kirpa that gives you positivity which will stop obstacles. bhull chuk maaf kariye ji vaheguru ji ka khalsa vaheguru ji ki fateh

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4 hours ago, Guest Kaur said:

After a couple of years now of seriously contemplating suicide I’ve considered the consequences and the extremity of each of them, understanding that such extremity doesn’t exist. In my eyes, any temporary matters in life such as friends, so called family, ‘happiness’, will neither suffer nor will have any ability in changing my mind at the point I’m at.

Most of me is gone by now, but there is still a droplet of Amrit left inside that won’t let me commit such a crime, but I’m afraid that with time, my mind will take control and I won’t be opposed to such an idea of not existing any longer.

I’m sinking more than ever now

Any partIcular reason why you are thinking this ?

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6 hours ago, Guest Kaur said:

After a couple of years now of seriously contemplating suicide I’ve considered the consequences and the extremity of each of them, understanding that such extremity doesn’t exist. In my eyes, any temporary matters in life such as friends, so called family, ‘happiness’, will neither suffer nor will have any ability in changing my mind at the point I’m at.

Most of me is gone by now, but there is still a droplet of Amrit left inside that won’t let me commit such a crime, but I’m afraid that with time, my mind will take control and I won’t be opposed to such an idea of not existing any longer.

I’m sinking more than ever now

Bhein ji you Must contact

http://www.sikhhelpline.com

https://www.sikhhelpline.com.au

http://www.sikhfamilyhelpline.com

They can guide you in best possible way.

Will do Ardas for your well being just hang in there 

 

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10 hours ago, Guest Kaur said:

After a couple of years now of seriously contemplating suicide I’ve considered the consequences and the extremity of each of them, understanding that such extremity doesn’t exist. In my eyes, any temporary matters in life such as friends, so called family, ‘happiness’, will neither suffer nor will have any ability in changing my mind at the point I’m at.

Most of me is gone by now, but there is still a droplet of Amrit left inside that won’t let me commit such a crime, but I’m afraid that with time, my mind will take control and I won’t be opposed to such an idea of not existing any longer.

I’m sinking more than ever now

You need to get help from your doctor or contact one of the above organisations Singhbj paji has put on. You are not alone, they’re there to help you. 

Is there anything you would like to talk about ?  

Samaritans (116 123) operates a 24-hour service available every day of the year. If you prefer to write down how you're feeling, or if you're worried about being overheard on the phone, you can email Samaritans at jo@samaritans.org.

Childline (0800 1111) runs a helpline for children and young people in the UK. Calls are free and the number won't show up on your phone bill.

There’s more help on the Nhs website. 

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Contact any organisation (preferably a Sikh one).

They will give professional advice.

Try some new hobbies to help clear the mind and to make you feel better.

If you could try talking to us about it, or anyone else. 

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VJKK VJKF

Vaheguru will help you. He helps all His children whenever they are struggling. If there is still even a droplet of amrit inside you, then savour it and try to make it last as long as you can. Listen to Dasam Bani and it will make you stronger. If you love Vaheguru then live for Him, spend more of your time trying to connect and act on His teachings. You are the daughter of Guru Gobind Singh Ji and no-one can change that. Follow the above posts too, they are also worthwhile too.

Stay in Chardikala!

VJKK VJKF

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2 hours ago, Guest Kaur 2 said:

VJKK VJKF

Vaheguru will help you. He helps all His children whenever they are struggling. If there is still even a droplet of amrit inside you, then savour it and try to make it last as long as you can. Listen to Dasam Bani and it will make you stronger. If you love Vaheguru then live for Him, spend more of your time trying to connect and act on His teachings. You are the daughter of Guru Gobind Singh Ji and no-one can change that. Follow the above posts too, they are also worthwhile too.

Stay in Chardikala!

VJKK VJKF

Are you thinking about making an account?

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15 hours ago, Guest Kaur said:

After a couple of years now of seriously contemplating suicide I’ve considered the consequences and the extremity of each of them, understanding that such extremity doesn’t exist. In my eyes, any temporary matters in life such as friends, so called family, ‘happiness’, will neither suffer nor will have any ability in changing my mind at the point I’m at.

Most of me is gone by now, but there is still a droplet of Amrit left inside that won’t let me commit such a crime, but I’m afraid that with time, my mind will take control and I won’t be opposed to such an idea of not existing any longer.

I’m sinking more than ever now

 

Hello there, 

Sorry that you have been through this 

Make an account

Pm me. And I can give you some great advice.

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20 minutes ago, Big_Tera said:

 

Hello there, 

Sorry that you have been through this 

Make an account

Pm me. And I can give you some great advice.

Why not post it here? The advice can go for everyone who will see this topic and go through the same thing.

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