you say that you would never do alcohol etc like other people who normally trim and start doing it, but youre amrithari, and it would be a bujjar kurehit for you to cut your kesh so that means you would have to go pesh infront of punj pyareh and ask for forgivness...or are you saying you want to leave being an amrithari but start living a 'typical' sikh life, where you have a trimmed dhari and a dastaar?
there must have been a reason in the first place why you wanted to take amrit ( unless you wer forced ) you cant just let go of the biggest blessing ever!
' the only thing that would be different is that i trim ' the only??? thats huge, youre cutting such a blessing from guru ji, your cutting kesh that have amrit inside them! and you commit a bujjar kurehit by cutting your kesh so its basically the same thing as people who drink alcohol
there is a reason why we get facial hair , makes sikh look unique and out there...