Im So Messed Up

[JustME]

i need to realy realy talk about summat,

i posted the whole story on Saturday but it di not come on the forum, im not sure what i di wrong but i realy realy need to get this off my chest, i feel like dying.......

im posting this to see if it actually apeears in forum, if iot does ill continue, cos it realy hard to keep typing what i about to say and then it all deleting

bhul chuk maaf

[Tarrandeep Kaur]

paaji/penji, if ur feelin down it wud be alot worthwhile speaking to ur true father, mahraj. do ardas, and read gurbani. listen to wat mahraj says.

howvever if u feel better by talking to sangat then go ahead, but remember we are all learning to, so can make mistakes.

[JustME]

That the thing.......i realy do try...............and listen and sometimes i think mahaj jee does guide me and he has always been there for me but it ME, I ALWAYS MESS THINGS UP.

I have never ever spoke to anyone about this cos it is so shameful and i feel totally disgusted with myself. i decided to take this step cos im hope it will shock me in realising how im even worse than a manmukh, there isnt a name to describe what i am.

howefer im worried about the younger members who read this forum as this is realy bad, but maraj laways says in his bani that you should go to the company of the saad sangant, and maybe there i will find the peace that i yearn for.

am i ok to continue...........? but please dont judge me on what i am about to say so i know how messed it i realy am, i only have one sister shes 11 year younger than me so i have never been able to talk about what happend to me......to anyone

[Tarrandeep Kaur]

That the thing.......i realy do try...............and listen and sometimes i think mahaj jee does guide me and he has always been there for me but it ME, I ALWAYS MESS THINGS UP.

I have never ever spoke to anyone about this cos it is so shameful and i feel totally disgusted with myself. i decided to take this step cos im hope it will shock me in realising how im even worse than a manmukh, there isnt a name to describe what i am.

howefer im worried about the younger members who read this forum as this is realy bad, but maraj laways says in his bani that you should go to the company of the saad sangant, and maybe there i will find the peace that i yearn for.

am i ok to continue...........? but please dont judge me on what i am about to say so i know how messed it i realy am, i only have one sister shes 11 year younger than me so i have never been able to talk about what happend to me......to anyone

penji/paaji.

if its tht bad, then yeh u shud consider the younger readers. maybe it would be best for you to PM someone.

you havent stated wether you are a penji or a paaji tho.

We are all here to try and help.

take care

gurfateh

[Saahiba]

i need to realy realy talk about summat,

i posted the whole story on Saturday but it di not come on the forum, im not sure what i di wrong but i realy realy need to get this off my chest, i feel like dying.......

im posting this to see if it actually apeears in forum, if iot does ill continue, cos it realy hard to keep typing what i about to say and then it all deleting

bhul chuk maaf

IK ONG KAR SATGUR PARSAD!!

Friend,

Try posting your story again!!

[JustME]

im sorry, i havent posted on a forum.....im a penjie im 23

i think i would be better if i PM somone, thank you, may i PM you please?

bhul chuk maaf

[Tarrandeep Kaur]

im sorry, i havent posted on a forum.....im a penjie im 23

i think i would be better if i PM somone, thank you, may i PM you please?

bhul chuk maaf

i was hopin u wud say ur a penji lol.

hanjee, im a penji too.

so go ahead and PM me

[Guest Papi]

that makes the two of us

[Medallion Stallion]

That the thing.......i realy do try...............and listen and sometimes i think mahaj jee does guide me and he has always been there for me but it ME, I ALWAYS MESS THINGS UP.

I have never ever spoke to anyone about this cos it is so shameful and i feel totally disgusted with myself. i decided to take this step cos im hope it will shock me in realising how im even worse than a manmukh, there isnt a name to describe what i am.

howefer im worried about the younger members who read this forum as this is realy bad, but maraj laways says in his bani that you should go to the company of the saad sangant, and maybe there i will find the peace that i yearn for.

am i ok to continue...........? but please dont judge me on what i am about to say so i know how messed it i realy am, i only have one sister shes 11 year younger than me so i have never been able to talk about what happend to me......to anyone

what happened to you, is it serious?

[Guest _Rajveer_]

You can PM me at Singh.Amanveer@yahoo.com