Indo Canadian Gang, Amrit, my life

[Singhkhalsa19842020 42]

Hello everyone. I am a 36 year old male from Surrey Canada . Im married and I have two children. Both under 10. 
In 2015 to 2018 I was involved with an indo Canadian gang (Punjabi mafia). I ran the business side of it for my crew for a couple years with some help from a really close friend, who I no longer speak too. Overtime I also indulged in the same drugs I had stored for dealing. 
I became a cocaine addict, smoked weed, and drank liquor. I became very paranoid. I always looked over my shoulders. Never felt safe. I'm an <banned word filter activated> for putting my family in that position too. 
Anyways I was constantly looking out for cops, snitches, and rival gangs. Sometimes even people in my crew who would maybe one day want to take me out. I was in a dark terrible place. We were dealing with Chinese, Vietnamese, other indo Canadian gangs, tamils. Never black, white or biker crews. We had our reasons. 
It took so long for me to realize how much of a deep hole I had digged. I'm in this hole with no support to climb out. 
I became numb for a while. I had no feelings, I had no problem putting a hit on someone, which I did not do. But did think about. 
One day I found out a close Chinese ally of ours got caught and was sentenced to 9 years. I was surprised. He was always careful. Very low key. How can this happen? 
I questioned the loyalty of others amongst me. Questioning even my brother. 
I was very unstable mentally. I was constantly alert and high on cocaine. 
Some nights I did not sleep. Just sitting in my house  with my gun beside me close to the window looking out all night. 
I can't even trust my "friends". Sure the money was good, but it was NOT worth it. This is not living. A couple days later friend of mine got shot in his house. Dead. Things were getting real serious. There was tension among all the crews. Everyone was on edge. 
More Chinese were raided and sentenced to 10 plus years. 
More and more of the indo Canadian members were targeted. Many died. 
I was never a religious person. But I turned to God. I did not know how to pray. I did my best at the time. I asked for forgiveness. I wanted out. 
I asked for strength to quit drugs. 
I asked for peace. 
I began reading Guru Granth Sahib ji Maharaj. Guru ji is beautiful. I was in tears. I went to a local gurdwara. Met many singhs. I spoke to many and got a attached to some. They are now my friends. First thing I did was get out of this business of ours. I called up my partners and told them I'm out. 
It was not easy. Took me a year to get out. I needed to collect all the money people owed us with using minimal force. Once I did that, it was my ticket out. 
Took me a year. I didn't even collect all of it. Some money I covered from my pocket. 
Then I was finally out. But still paranoid. 
Still not free. I stopped talking to everyone from my past. Except my family. 
I started hanging out with singhs. Learned to meditate. It was very peaceful. 
I was also friends with many singhs who wanted khalistan. They showed me what had happened in the past to our people. The videos, articles, pictures. The injustice, the genocide. I was horrified. 
I started digging deeper. We are clearly oppressed. I thought india does not want us to succeed. They want us to forget our Dharm. Our way of life. They want us to cut our hair. They want us to be their slaves and forget sikhi. 
I cannot contribute to this. I thought any mona person who shaves is helping this  form of genocide on sikhi. I was not going to be that person. 
I took amrit in Surrey BC. I felt so blessed. 
All my old contacts forgot about me. I was moving forward. I got a nice house. Healthy family and a good job. 
My wife is not amritdhari she said she is not ready. Sometimes i question was I ready? At the time I thought so. Or was it just an outlet. A form of rehab to help me with the addiction to drugs and to get out from my old lifestyle. Was it out of desperation I made this big decision to take amrit. Did I brainwash my self into believing that I am contributing to a sikh genocide by not taking amrit. Reading All these stories of the 1984 genocide. Everyday looking at pictures and watching videos of what happened. It was all very very sad. I was furious. I wanted those responsible to pay. 
They are trying to finish us. I won't let that happen to me. I'm not contributing to this genocide. I took amrit. 
I cut everything cold turkey in one day. 
It was possible due to Guru jis kirpa. 
I believe this for sure. The power of our Guru is very much real.
Its been to two years since I took amrit. 
I owe so much to Guru ji. Giving my head is the least I can do right? I was new to the vegan diet. I chose the vegan diet over vegetarian diet because I know those cows giving their milk farmed by big corporations in these mass production facilities is cruel. Cows are not suppose to be crowded together with no access to sunshine or grass. They are fed soy and grains which is not meant to be their diet. Its abuse. The milk and yogurt at the gurdwara. Its all contributing to this cruel business. 
So I became a vegan. I use to eat meat before I took amrit. 
Over the years my body was getting weaker and weaker. Joints hurt, getting rashes, arthritis. It was inflammation. Caused by the excessive omega 6 consumption. My body was not use to this. Im sure singhs in the past were raised vegetarians and their body was use to this diet. But my body was clearly rejecting it. I feel like a 60 year old man. 
I thought when will my body get use to this new diet I adopted. Will it ever? I couldn't wait long enough to find out. 
I was not healthy. I started eating meat again. This time from local farms where I can go see how the animals are raised. Very humane. These cows are grassfed grass finished. Living the life they should. 
I get a month's supply of grass fed grass finished rib eye steaks, and wild caught salmon. 
My health was restored. I was feeling better. My omega 3 to 6 ratio was good. 
I made sure the meat was not Halal. Some say all meat is forbidden but I didn't care ....the vegan lifestyle was destroying my health. 
I started questioning alot of things. Was wearing a kachera in the shower with my kirpan ritualistic? I understand the concept of tyar bar tyar. But I would turn to my shotgun for any defense not the kirpan I take with me to the shower. Anyways thats a discussion for another thread. 
After a while I stopped doing Simran in the morning. I never really got into it. Not sure if I really even did it right. 
I stop reading my nitnem and now listen to it on my way to work. Its almost become ritualistic in a way. 
There are great sikhs out there and better khalsa than me who follow through with the maryada. I respect those amritdharis. Im not them yet. 
Somedays I don't even do my nitnem. 
I fantasize about my wife at work and rush to come home to have some wild sex. I can't control myself. She loves it but it takes me away from my spiritual side. We have sex almost everyday. We enjoy it. But its hurting my spirituality
Now I don't do my nitnem altogether. 
Don't listen to kirtan or katha. And my wife is noticing this. She encourages me to do paath. She's an angel I love her. Very supportive. 
I see myself moving away from the spiritual side. 
The other day she said "I don't understand why people take amrit and then eat meat" 
I reminded her of my health due to the vegan diet. Also that I believe only halal meat was prohibited. But maybe thats just a way for me to justify it. 
She told me to take off the kirpan when your cooking the meat she thinks it not right. Maybe she is right. But then I said out loud why don't I just cut my hair and beard. What's the point of this if I'm not following through and keeping my nitnem and maryada. She then screamed  NO.  please don't do that. I think I agree with her that now I have taken amrit and all our family knows all our friends know. If I break my amrit it will look very very wrong. 
I have sikhs at work and the park come up to me ask me to do ardaas for them and a benti to Guru ji for this and that. I never understood why people did this. Why not pray yourself and ask. 
Sometimes they refer to me as khalsa ji.
But am I really a khalsa ji now? 
I look like it. But i don't follow anything. 
I'm living a Lie. Its not me anymore. 
I did ardas to Guru ji. I said I'm not ready for amrit yet. I asked for forgiveness and hope that Guru ji is not mad at me. I love sikhi. 
But can't seem to keep this commitment. Not yet anyways. I know I'll be back. 
I'm planning to cut my hair. Go back to my old self minus the drugs and alcohol. 
I feel like my amrit broke when I ate meat. 
Please don't judge me. But I need to step back. I was clearly not ready. 
Now I'm planning my transition from a Gursikh to a sikh. 
My neighbors, friends and family think I'm amritdhari, they know my wife isn't. Now when they will see me they will think, oh there's that guy who broke amrit. He's soo bad, he will go to hell. 
Maybe I will. I don't know. I don't want to keep my rehit out of fear. I want to do it because I love it. I think I took amrit for all the wrong reasons. I was very vulnerable.
Now about My beautiful wife. She's amazing. Sweet, and very pretty.
She wears her dresses and make up. Has her hair done. All about fashion. You know how some women are. She is very attractive. 
Its weird when a singh like me in his bana is walking beside her at the mall LOL Having lunch at some place. People stare. 
I think this time I will wait until we are both ready. 
I need help transitioning from gursikh to sikh. 
So many people will stop talking to me .
Half of my family will cut me off. 
The other half won't care. 
My dad is a mona. He drinks. He is very successful. About to retire soon. 
He will be disappointed. My mom will be devastated. My in laws will be disappointed but I'm more worried about my parents. I told my 9 year old son, and he started crying. He said he doesn't want me to cut my hair. He has a joora.

When he cried so did i. It hurts. He probably hates me. It broke my heart. 

But I can not continue living a lie. Dressing up as a gursikh when I'm clearly not anymore. I'm not in the inside. I think me faking it is worst. Its bad. 

Maybe I'll keep my hair and slowly come back into sikhi. I don't know. There are some things I don't agree with in the maryada. Some stuff just seems soo ritualistic. Like collecting dead hair after you comb it and then burning it followed by ardaas. And some other stuff. 

anyways....I guess I don't have a question really. 
Just wanted to post what I'm going through. 
I would love to see what the sangat thinks about what I went through. 
Please speak your mind. 
Thanks for listening. 
Love you all. !!!!
 

[justasking 229]

i can i ask u why u guys didnt deal with blacks or bikers?

[Ranjeet01 2,846]

On 10/16/2020 at 5:52 PM, Singhkhalsa19842020 said:

Hello everyone. I am a 36 year old male from Surrey Canada . Im married and I have two children. Both under 10. 
In 2015 to 2018 I was involved with an indo Canadian gang (Punjabi mafia). I ran the business side of it for my crew for a couple years with some help from a really close friend, who I no longer speak too. Overtime I also indulged in the same drugs I had stored for dealing. .....

 

You have done a lot of wrong things but you have redeemed yourself by doing the right things. 

You are in a better place because of Sikhi. Look how far you have come because of Sikhi. 

If you do not want to take Amrit then at least keep your kes and dastaar and keep doing the nitnem.

Keep it simple. Your daily paath has a had a lot of benefits that you do not realise.

You will realise what you are missing when you stop doing it.

[Singhkhalsa19842020 42]

Thank you

[Singhkhalsa19842020 42]

7 hours ago, justasking said:

i can i ask u why u guys didnt deal with blacks or bikers?

At the time there was alot of stuff going on with them. We didnt want to jump in the middle of it. Most of those black gangs were not very organized. And the bikers were too loud. I didnt trust them personally.

[Singhkhalsa19842020 42]

3 hours ago, Ranjeet01 said:

You have done a lot of wrong things but you have redeemed yourself by doing the right things. 

You are in a better place because of Sikhi. Look how far you have come because of Sikhi. 

If you do not want to take Amrit then at least keep your kes and dastaar and keep doing the nitnem.

Keep it simple. Your daily paath has a had a lot of benefits that you do not realise.

You will realise what you are missing when you stop doing it.

Thank you for replying. I will try. 

[Ranjeet01 2,846]

8 minutes ago, Singhkhalsa19842020 said:

Thank you for replying. I will try. 

Baby steps

[Singhkhalsa19842020 42]

3 minutes ago, Ranjeet01 said:

Baby steps

Yes I think that is important. I rush into things. My wife tells me this too. 

Thanks for your support 

[TuhadaDaas 120]

I would suggest becoming a nihang, this way *DELETED*

Also nihang Singh often just wear the *DELETED*

Nihang Singhs often don't mind their *DELETED*- but encourage them to keep head hair uncut.

I would strongly recommend finding some local nihang Singhs and I am almost sure they will convince you to stay in Sikhi and show you a more liveable and workable Sikhi.

It's fine to listen to nitnem if you don't do it yourself. 

Sikhi is not meant to be stressful, don't hold yourselves to the standards of the amritdharis you initially saw.

In the West, you have basically got Amritdhari groups that have been based upon the most extreme sections of Amritdhari community. If you go to Punjab, or outside like hazur sahib etc you will see much more normal Amritdharis that don't do half the stuff Amritdharis in the West say you need to do.

It is fine if you just listen to your nitnem, don't eat halal meat,  don't have sex outside your marriage,. Don't smoke tobacco and don't cut your hair and don't take intoxicants. 

With kakkars just do your best as you can and don't get too hung up on it. It is fine to have your own interpretation. Many Sikhs eg 3ho don't stress on wearing all 5ks while bathing etc.

Other than the above, three main focus should just be on fixing your inside being more humble and defeating the five evils.

It is better to follow a moderate Sikhi than to cut your hair. Just follow the basic for now.

Ask yourself - what would guru ji say to me right now? Would he say it is better to just do the bear minimum as an Amritdhari and add in on more later or to leave Amrit altogether? You don't have to be a perfect Saint, it's fine that you enjoy a physical relationship with your wife. Don't beat yourself up over it.

You don't have to wear Bana, just wear your normal dastar and 5ks

Do ardaas to guru sahib that he may give you the power and mindset to live in the way he wishes you to, not how your mind tells you to.

And don't even worry about panthic issues and khalistan etc for now

[Singhkhalsa19842020 42]

On 10/17/2020 at 8:48 AM, TuhadaDaas said:

I would suggest becoming a nihang...

Beautiful reply. Thanks for your support. 
Yes I will look into that. I would like to do more research about the Nihangs before I go out to find them. 
I am a bit of an extremist. im either a Punjabi gangster mona, or trying to be that perfect Saint amritdhari lol. I need to find a balance. 
I might keep my hair. I don't know. I feel like it's not really me though. I'm pretending to be something I'm not.  When I took amrit my son started growing his hair too. That was 2 years ago. I didn't force him. I think he feels like I abandoned ship leaving him on it. Maybe in his mind he thinks we took this journey together and now I'm leaving. He's upset with me right now. I'm just tired of living a lie. That's all. I'm born in Canada and 34 years of my life I was just a Canadian mona. These last 2 years I'm somebody else. I look in the mirror everyday and I see a lie. Pretending to be something I'm not. I'm not comfortable with that part yet. Maybe it will take time. Maybe I should cut my hair step back and see how I feel. If I miss being a singh, then I know the answer. I'll grow my hair again but this time take things slow. And when I take amrit this time I will take it with my wife. I believe its better that way. We can follow the path together and support each other. 
Don't get me wrong. Guru Granth Sahib ji Maharaj has been great support for me. 
Sometimes I think I took amrit for all the political reasons with khalistani's. To be apart of a movement. 
The head granthi at the gurdwara even told me to take it easy and not focus too much on the political side of it yet. He told me to focus on Bani. He was right. 
Anyways ill have to think long and hard about this a bit more. 
I'll consider your advice as well. Its good advice. 
Thank you very much for your support. 

[TuhadaDaas 120]

You say you think you are lying by keeping hair.

Who do you think you should be if you have hair? And why do you think this? 

Would you really ever be satisfied with you who you are to be worthy of being called a gursikh? The fact is we are all supposed to consider ourselves unworthy.

So if you are thinking you don't match up to being a gursikh with the appearance, you are actually being a perfect Sikh because guru sahib wants us to be humble. That person who thinks they are not a gursikh is the most worthy to have the appearance of a Sikh because they are focusing on their demerits and not feeling boastful about the good they do.

That person who thinks they are worthy of Sikhi is the one who is destined to fall.

Breaking Amrit now will cause you more turmoil as you are not aware of the spiritual disruptance it will cause inside you. *DELETED*

Just be a basic Sikh, I assure you it is fine.  The guru says keep your hair, following the guru can never lead to unhappiness. However, not following the guru, i.e. leaving Amrit will definitely cause you unhappiness. Guru sahib has already told is this in gurbani to save us the misery of trying it out ourselves. Trust what the guru says. Only what the guru says can lead to happiness and everything else leads to misery.

ਆਪਸ ਕਉ ਜੋ ਜਾਣੈ ਨੀਚਾ ॥

aapas kau jo jaanai neechaa ||

One who sees himself as lowly,

ਸੋਊ ਗਨੀਐ ਸਭ ਤੇ ਊਚਾ ॥

souoo ganeeaai sabh te uoochaa ||

shall be accounted as the highest of all.

[Akalifauj 900]

On 10/17/2020 at 8:48 AM, TuhadaDaas said:

I would suggest becoming a nihang, this way *DELETED*

Also nihang Singh often just wear the *DELETED*

Nihang Singhs often don't mind their *DELETED*- but encourage them to keep head hair uncut.

 Please keep this advice to yourself.   You are making a mockery of Sikhi by spreading propaganda.  

Sikhi is not a buffet.  You don't understand the root cause for his current state of mind.   Filling his head with more hocus pocus will take him further away.  You love the hocus pocus. I will not get in your way. I can say more but your cheerleader squad is already very angry with me.  I don't want to upset the fragile hormonal angels any further.

@Singhkhalsa19842020 you are making very more excuses for breaking away from Guru Sahib.   Amrit never breaks.  It's pure. You are trying to get pure by breaking ties with impure ways of life.  You are having  a melt down again and this time you don't realize it.  

The first meltdown was when you realized, if I continue as a drug dealer I will end up in jail or dead and you didn't want to see your children going through the trauma of losing their dad.  That was the scariest time of your life.  You saw the benefits of getting out and you did something about it.

You are facing another melt down.  This melt down will surely kill you thou.  The Punj Pyare tell us nitnem is the oxygen keeping you alive.  Once you stop breathing, your dead.  The same is true for nitnem.  Once you stop seeing the spiritual benefits of doing nitnem.  You will die a pain full death. No one knows when we will breathe our last breath.  To take the last breath in vain, which is the  current road you are heading on, is a pointless life.  Your children and spouse will cry over your death, but soon they will forget about you and move on in life.  The beautiful things in life are only temporary and you are completely head over heels for it.  The true beauty in life is reading Gurbani.   The bliss from Gurbani can only be a part of your life once you realize your wife's beauty is dust (meaningless).  Its a harsh reality to accept.  Today the wife is beauty and your are enjoying her physically.  However with age she will lose her beauty and your mind will chase to find a younger woman to fantasize about or complete the act with.  When the mind is focused on Guru Sahib the mind doesn't care what others think. The mind sees the beauty in helping.  Yet you are so lost you can't even wear a bana in public with your wife because you believe people will be judging you.  This melt down is happening and you are choosing to give in.  You are quitting.  

So how can you get the spiritual connection with Guru Sahib again?  Read Gurbani in the language you understand what Guru Sahib is saying.  When reading Gurbani, soon as you realize your mind has drifted into dreamland.  Stop reading and start from the beginning and try again to focus and remember the pauri or shabad.  If you start day dreaming again.  Then kick the mind again and start from the beginning.   Bhagat Kabir ji says we literally have to wrestle with the mind to subdue it and with Guru Sahib kirpa it will bow down to Gurbani.  Which in turn will give you life.  Once you start seeing with Gurbani, you will never go back to the useless way of living as a slave to maya.

You can also save a reward for when you finish all the nitnem at the end of the day.  Soon the reward would not be necessary because the mind will wake up to the reward it receives from doing nitnem.  

I kept this pc as possible,  but if you want a real kick in the head to set you on the straight path again.  Send me a private message.   We all need a kick in the head

[Singhkhalsa19842020 42]

22 minutes ago, TuhadaDaas said:

You say you think you are lying by keeping hair.

Who do you think you should be if you have hair? And why do you think this? 

Would you really ever be satisfied with you who you are to be worthy of being called a gursikh? The fact is we are all supposed to consider ourselves unworthy.

So if you are thinking you don't match up to being a gursikh with the appearance, you are actually being a perfect Sikh because guru sahib wants us to be humble. That person who thinks they are not a gursikh is the most worthy to have the appearance of a Sikh because they are focusing on their demerits and not feeling boastful about the good they do.

That person who thinks they are worthy of Sikhi is the one who is destined to fall.

 

Breaking Amrit now will cause you more turmoil as you are not aware of the spiritual disruptance it will cause inside you. Eating meat did not break your Amrit I can assure you, as it was not halal. 

 

Just be a basic Sikh, I assure you it is fine.  The guru says keep your hair, following the guru can never lead to unhappiness. However, not following the guru, i.e. leaving Amrit will definitely cause you unhappiness. Guru sahib has already told is this in gurbani to save us the misery of trying it out ourselves. Trust what the guru says. Only what the guru says can lead to happiness and everything else leads to misery.

ਆਪਸ ਕਉ ਜੋ ਜਾਣੈ ਨੀਚਾ ॥

aapas kau jo jaanai neechaa ||

One who sees himself as lowly,

 

 

ਸੋਊ ਗਨੀਐ ਸਭ ਤੇ ਊਚਾ ॥

souoo ganeeaai sabh te uoochaa ||

shall be accounted as the highest of all.

 

 

Yes that sounds right. I do think I'm not worthy to be a gursikh. But the way you explained it makes sense. Bani is beautiful. It's guidance and support that I need now

Thank you soo much for sharing 

[justasking 229]

5 hours ago, Singhkhalsa19842020 said:

At the time there was alot of stuff going on with them. We didnt want to jump in the middle of it. Most of those black gangs were not very organized. And the bikers were too loud. I didnt trust them personally.

ah i see. were those black gangs locals from surrey vancouver or from settle or from toronto? I hear the punjabis involved in this sort of thing in BC r not as organized as they were before alot more trigger happy  and its pretty chaotic now. was ur crew involved in the groups moving to kelowna and east to alberta, winnipeg and toronto areas?

[Singhkhalsa19842020 42]

26 minutes ago, Akalifauj said:

 Please keep this advice to yourself.   You are making a mockery of Sikhi by spreading propaganda.  

Sikhi is not a buffet.  You don't understand the root cause for his current state of mind.   Filling his head with more hocus pocus will take him further away.  You love the hocus pocus. I will not get in your way. I can say more but your cheerleader squad is already very angry with me.  I don't want to upset the fragile hormonal angels any further.

@Singhkhalsa19842020 you are making very more excuses for breaking away from Guru Sahib.   Amrit never breaks.  It's pure. You are trying to get pure by breaking ties with impure ways of life.  You are having  a melt down again and this time you don't realize it.  

The first meltdown was when you realized, if I continue as a drug dealer I will end up in jail or dead and you didn't want to see your children going through the trauma of losing their dad.  That was the scariest time of your life.  You saw the benefits of getting out and you did something about it.

You are facing another melt down.  This melt down will surely kill you thou.  The Punj Pyare tell us nitnem is the oxygen keeping you alive.  Once you stop breathing, your dead.  The same is true for nitnem.  Once you stop seeing the spiritual benefits of doing nitnem.  You will die a pain full death. No one knows when we will breathe our last breath.  To take the last breath in vain, which is the  current road you are heading on, is a pointless life.  Your children and spouse will cry over your death, but soon they will forget about you and move on in life.  The beautiful things in life are only temporary and you are completely head over heels for it.  The true beauty in life is reading Gurbani.   The bliss from Gurbani can only be a part of your life once you realize your wife's beauty is dust (meaningless).  Its a harsh reality to accept.  Today the wife is beauty and your are enjoying her physically.  However with age she will lose her beauty and your mind will chase to find a younger woman to fantasize about or complete the act with.  When the mind is focused on Guru Sahib the mind doesn't care what others think. The mind sees the beauty in helping.  Yet you are so lost you can't even wear a bana in public with your wife because you believe people will be judging you.  This melt down is happening and you are choosing to give in.  You are quitting.  

So how can you get the spiritual connection with Guru Sahib again?  Read Gurbani in the language you understand what Guru Sahib is saying.  When reading Gurbani, soon as you realize your mind has drifted into dreamland.  Stop reading and start from the beginning and try again to focus and remember the pauri or shabad.  If you start day dreaming again.  Then kick the mind again and start from the beginning.   Bhagat Kabir ji says we literally have to wrestle with the mind to subdue it and with Guru Sahib kirpa it will bow down to Gurbani.  Which in turn will give you life.  Once you start seeing with Gurbani, you will never go back to the useless way of living as a slave to maya.

You can also save a reward for when you finish all the nitnem at the end of the day.  Soon the reward would not be necessary because the mind will wake up to the reward it receives from doing nitnem.  

I kept this pc as possible,  but if you want a real kick in the head to set you on the straight path again.  Send me a private message.   We all need a kick in the head

Thanks for the support. Thank for messaging. I really appreciate it. Yes maybe I will send you private message and we can dig a little deeper. 

I respect people who can live up to being that perfect gursikh. Im clearly not that yet. I did wear the bana many times when I was out even with my wife. Didn't matter to me. Just pointing out people stare and talk. Your right it shouldn't bother me though. But sometimes I get sick of them. Unfortunately I'm not strong like gursikhs. I'm still very weak and low. I'm trying my best. 

That last bit you wrote about Bhagat kabir ji was beautiful. Thank you for sharing. 

Also please try to be nicer to others in the comment section my brother. I know sometimes we can't all think alike and have many disagreements but let's not just lash out on each other. Unless you guys have a past I don't know about. 

Thanks again we will talk soon.